Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I started this blog a few months ago and this is only my second post - tells me something about being a parent for sure. LIfe has a way of running away with you, time disappears before I even notice and I feel like I can never "get" to anything. Then again, sitting there listening to Luke babble away in his exersaucer with such joy instead of going to work or making a phone call or writing emails feels like a much better option. I don't know why I feel the pressure of what I "should" be doing, instead of enjoying just what I'm doing. I will have time again to read books that enrich my mind instead of just help me step out of my own mind for a bit. I will get to sit and watch mindless t uninterrupted again someday- then again, maybe I don't miss that! I will get to talk on the phone to friends without trying to entertain him at the same time. It will come, but now isn't the time. Now is the time to pay attention, to watch him change and learn and grow, to go a bit easier on myself about what I do get done in a day. My reality has changed and its time to stop fighting against it and just go with the flow. only taken me 6 months to clue in - not bad!!